The new Coheed grows on you, I wasn't too impressed at first, the only good songs were the ones on the myspace, but it's good enough.

It's coheed.

Stay true.


ALSO, well, I don't know what else to say.

I want to accomplish something with life someday... but how.
I will not be a nobody.


I also wish the Kelowna Scene was back haha.
I've had a few discussions about this with people in the past few days... *sigh


Anyways, new Coheed, giver a listen, don't bother with the album art.... it sucks.  Worst Album art ever, looks like anime or something,I'm very dissapointed Coheed (or Cambria) 

Graveyard antics

She threw away my lunch again today...

Kind of,

This time, she took my lunch bag, emptied it so that the individual items were now seperated throughout the fridge, and threw away the bag. She also moved the Nalgene bottle that was resting beside/ontop of the bag in the fridge.


Que!?!?!

Two things that have interested me.

I just (literally 3 min ago) witnessed about 30 little birds in a flock flying like WWI planes diving in two groups at a bigger bird who had obviously ... heh... ruffled their feathers. It was like watching a Snowbirds show.... except with little birds, perfectly flying together in big swooping arial combat with this bigger one. Really impressive


I was in Tim Hortons yesterday, one in Kelowna, and before getting something to eat (a bagel) I went to the washroom. In the washroom was a garbage can, with your classic brown paper towel, crumpled up as it had been used, half hanging out of the can. Why is this interesting? There was no paper towel dispenser in the washroom...


There we go, short and sweet, but at least it's something INTERESTING! hah!

Stealing my attention

So, this English Writing blog of mine seems to be stealing my attention. I blame the fact that my prof makes it mandatory and gives us topics to write about. I think thats what makes it interesting to write though, the fact that i'm given a free playing field on whatever topic she throws at us.

But into other news! So yesterday I fell asleep in my car. Not while driving mind you, but it was still unexpected, at lunchish time I went to my car to switch up texts and low and behold, i sat down with my music playing and fell asleep! I panicked when I woke up for that horrible split second thinking i had missed class... not that it would have been a big deal? it just would have been annoying.

What else is new....in point form?

I just attained... and in the same week satisfied a fierce addiction to The Office. Now i'm waiting for season 4, on Thursday.

okay, thats that, AND! Heroes on Monday was awesome... for all of you who do not watch heroes, you need to start now.

Yikes, what a horribly boring blog...... check out my School one for some other interesting musings i guess.... I think I did a better job at that one today, but thats with the help of Youtube and Streblo.

Throwing things away

So, at my work there is a cleaning lady, she cleans the lunchrooms and the washrooms etc and does a very good job at it indeed. She comes in on graveyard, (which is my shift) and is working away very busily in the lunchroom where my shift leaves our bags and lunches etc, sometimes we'll come in to the room at lunchtime to find that while we were out she has come and gone.

Sometimes I find this out in ways less than desirable, for example, last weekend, she cleaned out the fridge... including my lunch, and there was no retrieving it in the garbage because she had replaced the bags.

Honest mistake, it happens I'm sure.

Yesterday however, (or last night... this morning? Whenever, the shift I just had)
I forgot one of my work gloves at my car, and before I went back to grab it, I got a nice new pair, sounds good, the old pair were getting old anyways. Well... I place the lone glove with my high vis. vest, which is on top of a cupboard where we all leave our bags etc, and go to work.
I come back, and the lunchroom has been cleaned, and my glove had been thrown out!!! Ridiculous, and again, no retrieving it because the garbage bags had been replaced.
No mercy, I can't leave my lunch in the fridge, nor my stuff on the cupboard.
I can't bring myself to an assumption that iIm being picked on.... however, that is irritating.

Next week it'll be my car keys or something of that nature.

Another Blog??

*Gasp, check this out, another blog!?

For English, (or more specifically "University Writing"), my prof has assigned quite an interesting.... assignment. Blog within 24 hours of each class, based on a topic given in class (usually a reflection of the day).

Anyways, as a result of it being school, that blog will be updated 3 times a week, and will more be focused on what I'm up to in class, BUT if it so tickles your fancy, then you can check it out.

jarkle.blogspot.com

(or if you don't want to type that out, you can go to my "profile" by clicking on my picture over there to your right, that'll take you to my "profile" where you can then see my 2 blogs, the school on is "This is what I think....")

Enjoy!

(And I'll try to keep this one exciting with better comings and goings of life outside school... starting now?)

avoid eye contact

Have you ever noticed the great lengths that strangers will go through, just to avoid making eye contact with someone walking towards them on the sidewalk?

Here's the scene.... a lonely sidewalk, two pedestrians (both human beings, both presumably able to speak) walking in opposite directions, towards each other. As the space between shortens, the awkwardness sets in.... neither speaks, and both frantically try to figure out how to pass the other... now if one is wearing sunglasses, this makes it much easier becuase you can do the "look past", otherwise some opt to do the "look away" some do the "quick eye contact, then look forward" and the little gem that I got the other day was someone who turned their head in the complete opposite direction.. towards a wall! Is someone walking towards you THAT intimidating?

None the less, I'm in College now, and it's school. There is too much, but not enough time in between my classes, so I'm trying to figure out how I should pass the time tomorrow. Philosophy is going to be an amazing class from first impressions, and I hope I'm right.... but I'm afraid the Prof might not like my arguments if I come to a topic such as "the existence of God" (term one). We'll see.

Macbook pro coming in the mail.... soon! ooh boy

I guess this week was the week that Steve Irwin passed away last year, so the discovery channel has been doing Croc. hunter specials. It's making me miss Australia a surprising amount.

I don't know what else to write about. Life is fun, confusing and sometimes I don't do it right, BUT it's fun.

The Unveiling

It's out, it's here, hello!

This band.....
This band hahah
Order it now! Get it now! You can too! No matter what country you are in, you can order this CD! INTERNATIONAL RELEASE! wow, it's so good.
Go get it,

Now
That means you.



excerpt from CD cover
"Cota Thanks: '..., Jon, Mike and Danny who have been with us from the start, ...."

Aw.... thats so awesome.

ANYWAYS! GET THIS CD NOW! I DON"T CARE IF IT'S NOT YOUR STYLE OF MUSIC, IT WILL BE.


http://www.solidstaterecords.com/cota/ecard/



In other news, after 3-4 years of faithful, everyday use, it seems my ipod has finally gone kaput. (More so than it did in Australia, this seems to be the final Kaput). SO I guess this means I need to get a new one... whcih is a horrible thought for me for 2 reasons.

1) I have a weird faithfulness to my old ipod, so i'd rather try to get it working (I'm the only person i know who still has an old school black and white screen Ipod)

2) I hate spending money. Not becuase I'm greedy and want to hold on to it, i just value the importance of saving. I need that money for my kids college education! (Mabye i can get a new Ipod)

BUT FIRST I will try to fix it.... or at least try to get ONE certain CD onto it.....
Only one CD is important right now. (And I can't even put it on...)

I'm very Tired.

The sun takes a lot out of you....
after 8 hours, I'm slowly counting down the last 2 hours from now until i have to go back to the mill for another 8. The Friday day/graveyard double I do.... why? Because I can.

I had an idea on what to write about, but it's completely escaped my mind! This is unfortunate.

Well... I'll write some random fun facts.

Currently listening to : Pirates of the Caribbean 2: Original Motion Picture Soundtrack

Currently Relying on: Spell check.

Currently running on: the last ounces of energy a coffee gave me a while ago.

My surroundings at the moment are a computer in front of me, an empty nalgine bottle (1L) to my right, also to my right, guitar (and boomerang haha woah! random, this just got fun) To my left? various books on the desk, few of which are mine.

What did I do today? Well, my Fathers Father and Mother showed up in the country today, So my house is now filled with a very British presence. After work I talked with my Granny, she saw a deer and then we went out for dinner. Those are the highlights. Whilst at dinner I was wondering if anything was going to happen that night (Plans with friends wise) Nothing did.

I just yawned, suggesting I should do something to try to relief myself of this sleep... issue.
Tiredness puts much to much on your mind... but takes away rational process of thought.
Strange unfortunate conclusions which then make for MORE food for thought the next day.
Yikes.

(I think the Quail from the other post was watching me today as I drove by... Quail Stalker)
I wouldn't mind a stalker.... wouldn't it be interesting? having someone So enfatuated by you that that want to know your every move? I guess... I wouldn't mind a stalker for a limited amount of time, once they started getting annoying I'd send them away. "shoo" I'd say.

Last night, I was explaining to Danny and Amanda that it's just as logical for people to, instead of shortening Jonathan to Jon, call me Nathan. joNathan. I don't think I'm a Nathan.
My parents were going to name me "Aiden"

There we go.

Todays Resolution? Think an idea through before trying to write a Blog.
(oh, but in the last post i had a little shout out that no one really caught... the "wheel of morality", Animaniacs? anyone? the end of every episode had the "Wheel of morality" to give the episodes random moral? no? thats okay.)

Survival Tip.

Well, here it is, some much awaited advice on how to survive in the hot summer.

Don't run across the road in front of cars.

Let me explain.

I'm on my way home on a balmy July afternoon after completing a full day of work. Whilst driving up my road I am suddenly shocked to see a little brown ball of feathers dart out in front of my car, not even 1 foot away from my tires. I see feathers fly everywhere (literally... it was almost funny how many feathers there seemed to be), and then a little body in the rear view mirror crumpled in a ball in the middle of the road. My very first roadkill. (If my memory serves me correctly... which means, it could just be the first one in the past week...)

Nonetheless, I feel bad. I've always wondered when one of these suicidal birds we call "Quails" would do just this, make a dart in front of the car when there is no possible chance of survival. Usually they are SLIGHTLY smarted than starting to run a foot away from a moving vehicle, but I guess this one was just unlucky... or didn't have a very acute sense of logic, timing, or depth perception.
I back up the tank back so that the little...fat bird was now in front of me.. when all of a sudden this thing starts to kind of flail around!
"Oh no... I've broken it's neck or something" So I get out of the car and go to pick it up. I was wearing my work gloves, so I wasn't touching some bloody mangled corpse, actually even if I hadn't been wearing my gloves, there was no blood on the bird. It's neck seemed crooked though... kind of in the same way that you see a bird that has just hit a window. I pick this quail up and realise... it's still alive. I'm going to look after it.
So I got back in the car with the bird cradled in my hand, and I drive home. I then sit on my lawn with it while it slowly recoups, and watch it as it goes from "dazed.... to frightened... to calmer... to falling asleep?".
This attention I was giving this bird made my dog very jealous, as he would actually nuzzle his nose under my arm when i was petting the bird, to try to make me pay attention to him. He would shoot dirty looks at the quail before pawing at me to pay attention. aw.





Anyways, the Bird looked like it had eyelashes, so I decided I'm going to refer to her as a she. I named her Susan because that was the first name that came to my head (??) and when she finally seemed to have enough consciousness, i drove back down my road to where I had hit her, and put her back in the bushes on the side of the road from whence she came. She wasn't moving much... she just sat, but I'm sure thats becuase she was still terrified. By this time she was chirping and her chest looked like it was constantly vibrating becuase of her heartbeat. The only place she was obviously hurt was one of her toes which was slightly bleeding, that and lots of feathers still lose.


Spin the wheel of morality.

Today's moral is, don't run out in front of cars, especially on my road, becuase you might not be as lucky as Susan the Quail was.


The End.

Today

Today at work, it rained.

Alot.

And it was the best thing ever.

I liked today because I like the rain

I like the rain when it pours hard, and there is thunder.

Today was one of my favorite days of the past little while, because it was my job to be walking

through knee deep water on the road.

I "surfed" on floating logs down the road.

My Dogs name is Champ.

I wish It was more acceptable to write like a 4rth grader all the time.

But in all seriousness, this weather was awesome today. At one point (at the mill at least) there was hail, which was sweet. My jeans got completely soaked to the point that I felt like i had jumped in the lake, and thats not even mentioning my boots. As I'm typing this however, the sun is shining through the window, and is brighter than usual because of the shining on the wet leaves. grr.
Awesome, rain is the best. I want to sit somewhere and watch it, yes yes I know that sounds lame, but I don't want to do it alone pfft, so it's not THAT bad. One of these days I'll be able to enjoy the monsoon without having to work in it. I'll have company and hopefully be dry, although once completely wet? you don't care anymore.

haha, imagine that, ridonkulous.

List

I'm a big fan of my job for 2.5 reasons
- It's fun, it's doing something and I feel like I've worked afterwards.
- When you have something on your mind, you can think about it, you just get into a zone, a rhythm, and just... think about it over.. and over
-(.5) at the same time, when you have something on your mind that you DON"T want to be thinking about, you can just start to work hard and completely preoccupy your mind.

I want to see the Transformers movie again

At the same time that I like my job...
I like having days off, Because I play ALOT of guitar during that time. I realized this the other day, because when I came back from Aus. I had a week of no work, (week and a half?). Everyday, guitar guitar guitar until the evening when I would maybe meet up with Danny.

Coming back from the travels this time, it was only 3-4 days before I went back to work, but it was the same deal, hours of guitar. Which I enjoyed.

Oops, I lost the "list" format I was going for.

But then again, I've also forgotten what it was I was going to write about in the first place, the guitar thing came because I started listening to some songs I have learned to play.

I've finally found something that can take my music focus away from Joshua Radin, the new Iron and Wine song. Here "Boy with a coin"
Such a good song, I've been listening to that
Also, the odd Evermore since I finally got ahold of it.

After work this morning I went to the docks and jumped in to clean myself off, met this interesting guy.

Graveyard shifts + Jetlag make for strange emotions and thought process's

I think God speaks to me most when I'm at work... I think thats when I Speak to him most as well.

This list has more work related topics than anything else...

*Survival question - Lets say you were stuck in the desert, and you had a water bottle. Now, I'm assuming most people would wait till they absolutely had to before drinking that water as to stay alive longer. Now... what is the wiser thing to do? Drink the water all at once? to completely rehydrate, OR would it be wiser to slowly drink the water, maybe over a few days, so that your constantly dehydrated... but "hydrating" longer and more often.
Don't ask why

No real topic, just musing.

All I really listen to is Joshua Radin now haha I took a decisive break from Brooke. I need to break this JR habit though... BUT at least I have his songs memorized, which makes it easier to remember on guitar.
My favorite song by him is called Winter... and it's making me really really look forward to wintertime. The song actually has nothing to do with winter... in the slightest really, BUT it is called "winter", and as a result makes me look forward to winter every time I see it. Cold weather is the best, and snow is even better. I entirely missed last winter, no snow whatsoever, so this one will be welcomed.
(And I recognize that for the Alberta readers of this blog of mine that your winter is not looked upon quite as fondly.. but bear with me Amanda)

Not to say that summer isn't nice, it was commented to me just yesterday by a friend how nice it is that 9:00 or 10:00pm can roll around, and it'll still be light outside, which is nice, I've gained a really large fondness to spending time outside. It's all been in my slow venture to rid myself of what I see as a slow cancer, this being MSN and Facebook. And I've actually really enjoyed it, it's had me playing more guitar, spending more time with friends, and making an effort to be active aside from sitting listening to music in front of a fluorescent screen.

This being said.... if you read this little online semi journal of mine, then please get ahold of me, because I want to spend time with you.

For serious.

Holy Cow!

Something that I find really funny about Nepal is that becuase of the strong hindu influence, Cows are revered so much to the point that they can stop traffic. We'll be speeding along in one of these insane taxi's, and then have to slow down all of a sudden to take a wide turn around a Cow that decides to take a nap in the middle of the road. (I also like seeing monkeys just walking around down sidewalks, doing all sorts of buisness.. ha)

A story:

So, two days ago we met up with this friend of ours who took us out of the Kathmandu city into the hills to a small village out there. In this landcruiser of his we took a very very bumpy ride up into the hills on these small one car roads that due to the heavy rain that had started were muddy and awesome. The rain took a well timed break just as we reached the bottom of this hill that we then walked up, on the way we saw this church that he was building and heard some awesome stories about the changes happening in the village. On our way down, it started to rain again, and some of the members in our fellowship had a revelation... rain brings out leeches.
There was quite a few funny moments as the girls in our group panicked becuase of leeches crawling up their shoes, and one incident on the leg, eventually (most of us) were calm with the belief that there was no longer a leech threat.
myself included,
Now, I'm going to give a short history for anybody reading this who has not seen me really since I came back to Canada. I came back with some amazing shoes. At one point they were all brown Converse Allstars. They are the same shoes that I left to ywam with... except they no longer look like the same shoes, they are so ripped up and in pieces that some could technically refer to them as being "sandals". (Now for those of you who may know me even better than that... i don't frequently buy new clothes... so my socks? didn't look much better... they hardly have bottoms anymore the holes are so big. (Also... in Kathmandu there are many people on the streets who "fix and shine" shoes....you should see their faces when I walk by, my sister has seen some actually turn around and drop their jaws... I refer to my shoes as "dead" when i talk to them"

Back to the story
So, 30 min after the leech fiasco, we are just arriving on the outer rim road of Kathmandu, when all of a sudden.... I can feel something. In my shoes. No... In my socks. Crawling? no Slithering in between my toes.
"I think there's something in my shoe"
"WHAT? Jon thats not funny"
"hahah no seriously"
I then proceed to take off my shoe... to see that the tip of my sock is darkened with blood, I then start to take off my sock, but it is unecessary to completly remove the sock becuase what should drop out of the gaping hole? But this leech, already fat on my blood. It had crawled through the gateways that were my socks and shoes.
I'm loving it, laughing away becuase I thought it made a good story, however it started an entirely new panic between the girls about leeches, and it turns out there was actually another one on one of our members backs that had stuck on. fun fun.

We then drove to the "transition home" and hung out with the people there, which was awesome. Last night was actually our goodbye with all the kids from the homes, as today we start our journey home (there are overnight layoversk, and we are going through Cambodia on our way back, so we're staying there a day etc.) But it was really sad to say goodbye. Even though it was such a short time, we really got connected with these guys, there was Lots of guitar on my part on the roof of the home with the boys, haha I taught them Saosin and how "metal music" in North america is played (drop D heh). They loved it, and especially liked "Out of the mud" by Stutterfly hahah. There was also sing alongs for well known songs like "American Pie" and old faithful, "knocking on heavens door". To be honest, I think it was one of the (if not THE) first times I've ever sung and played Guitar (together) in front of people, (usually I'm too self concious) which was cool becuase they were all into it. One of them then showed me a song that he and his friends wrote, which was awesome, All in Nepali, really cool.

There was another funny story... when it happened I thought to myself "write this in the blog", but now I can't remember it.

But thats life. Quite a few days back we went to the zoo with the youngest kids, which was really cool, They all refer to me as "Jon Uncle", which is really cute. The zoo was small, but still was really cool, the first zoo I'd ever been to. The kids love monkeys, but arn't so fascinated by the tiger they had. Suprising.

BUT! I have to run now, catch a flight. Thank you for reading! It really does make my day when I hear that someone has been.

cat-man! don't

So, here is the update that I promised in the previous post that no-one probably read, becuase I think the time in between has probably been while all you wonderful folk were asleep.

None the less! here it is.

Now, originally I had a grand plan to quote various bits from my journal in this, seeing as it's hard to remember everything completly.... but thats not interesting, anyways journals nowadays seem like less of a "day tracker" but more of a mind tracker, and thats not what keep the ratings up, people want action.

So here's the deal



Basically, 1/2 of the time or more in between when I probably last saw you and now have been spent on a plane. haha, it was like the Australia trips all over again. The thing about plane rides is that there is nothing really entertaining about them. You sit upright becuase you don't want to be one of those insensitive jerks who would DARE to recline. You try to amuse yourself with reading, unfortunatly in myt case this flight, my mind kept taking off on me, and I'd realise I had 'read' and entire page without even reading anything. The best thing is when your mind is taken off of whatever it is that is particularily haunting you at the moment when this wonderful gift of nature comes around... toilet time. Yes, the most exciting part of a 14 hour sit fest is when you get the excuse to stand up and wait in line with some other strangers to go into the exotic little... "room?". Anything to add some variety.
Anyways, after various overnight Layovers, on the flight to Kathmandu itself this little gem made me smile as the pilot intropduced himself (in thick accent) as being "_____________ and I will be your Prime Minister this flight"

Yes!

One of hte layovers was in Thailand (overnight), and we met up with two YWAM Missionary friends out there of ours, I had met them in Perth before they moved out to Bangkok, and they go back with my dad. It was really really cool to see them again, brought back alot of fond memories. Besides the point.

Anyways, Today we went to one of the homes for the first part just spent time with the kids, The honourable Mr. Arkle and Carr wer in meetings of sorts with those in charge of the house, and I joined them in those later on, but for the first part chilled with the kids. Unfortunatly while having them show me their incredible acrobatic skills, I feel responsible for having one of the kids hurt himself, but like a trooper he cheered up and we continued to play soccer in the rain on hte roof with a hacky sac. Awesome.
I also tried teaching some of them Guitar (after an intense boxing/tickling show down... little dudes are fast) , not with much success, BUT something I was quite excited about was when this one little guy (Abraham as the home calls him) looks at my shirt and reads aloud "Cry!.....of...the.....Afflicated!"
Close enough, I happily corrected him. What I also found kind of cool was that HIS shirt I could very gladly read aloud as "Perth Western Australia"

The Roads in Nepal are chaotic.... but very poetically haha, there is the strangest order in the absolute madness... no lights, no lines really (some... but they are not followed as a taxi will speed down "oncoming traffic", but it's not really oncoming... it's just other vehicles on the road. In less than inches these cars will speed by each other, never hitting. It makes for a jerky ride with all the starts and stops, but it's incredible really... Sereously... there is absoultlyu no shape or order to these roads... no single file of cars, no "right of way", just whoever gets there first, and whoever brakes fastest. Courtney and Katy said they just close their eyes to stop them from freaking out.

Now for the more personal stuff that isn't just action. For the majority of you, you've had your fill, and thanks for tuning in. For the rest? What could you possibly want to know about Jon Arkle?

Well.... Every night I fall asleep to, and every morning I start my day with the beautiful Brooke Fraser. I'm trying to decipher now whether I'm a bigger fan of her new CD or her old. My opinion right now? Her old... BUT at the moment the first becuase it's so different from the new one, but still awesome. Also, I've listened to her so much haha every variety is awesome.
But, my music choice has not been entirely brooke Fraser, actually she is just my day starter and sleep... fader, everything in between? Has been dedicated to one artist entirely, Joshua Radin, Incredible, I can't STOP listening to him either. If any of you are aware of him, do tell, if not? Now you are, check him out.
My favorite song of his is called "Winter" and then "Star Mile", so for all you downloading types, there you go.

Hmm, Danny and Mike, if you two read this (Danny, you said you do sometimes), Tell me about Warped tour! All the best for you two if I don't get ahold of you before it. I'll do my best to anyhow.
Erm... Oh, if there is anyone who would want to see that Transformers movie with me that would be sweet. Now, this would have to be someone who is not necessarily particular to seeing it opening night... becuase I don't get back till after the 9th. ALSO! After the 9th ahha sometime soon, and chances are that'll be a Saturday night (after 7:30ish) I want to have the long awaited, or much dreaded Photo night... heh. So yea, tell your friends? It'll happen soon. HOLD ME TO IT! haha there. I think thats the catch, I need people to keep me accountable.

Also, the book I'm reading is so awesome haha, Orthodoxy (Jordan!) I've never underlined and circled and written so much in a book (unless a teacher had told me to). SUCH a good book. Basically it's Theological Philosophy for those of you who may not have heard of it. The Book i have lined up after it is called "The Question of God" which is Debates for and against God by Cs. Lewis and Sigmund Freud. Pumped for that one.

And that was a blog. I'll be sending more personal penitrating e-mails later. If anyone wants a more specific update on any corner of my mind of experiences then PLEASE! ask, Becuase unfortunatly... I don't give myself any credit for knowing what to tell people at all, much less what they want to hear heh.

Anyways, Joshua Radin Cd just finished so it might be time to wrap up the blog, header off, mabye listen to some Brooke Fraser. haha.

Namaste


ps. Kathmandu is filled with hippies... like... actual bare footed, dirty, very hairy, rasta...ish? nirvana seekers. It's so.... interesting to see.

pps. I've decided I'm going to listen to "Winter" again, then Brooke.

Subject.

"I don't know if this is going to work....

This is a "blog entry" made by sending an e-mail to blogger... haha, we'll see, if your reading it then it works


I WILL GIVE AN ENTRY WHEN I HAVE TIME, unfortunatly I have to run, this was my 5 min window to check e-mails.

But when I have time, I will blog and e-mail etc.

Trust me."


Ha, it didn't work, thankfully I trusted my instinct and followed through with a quick copy paste.

Anyways, now I REALLY have to go in even Shorter amount of time. So I'll update you all later.
(Amanda... your ridonkulous. Thats the only shout out I'm making in this post.)

2 weeks

I'm gone for the next 2 weeks,

Now although not nearly as long as the 7^ months that I was gone before, I'm going to do better by all of you this time...

I'll be sending e-mails, and doing my best to stay in touch the entire time,


Hold me to it.

The Problem

The problem with blogging etc, is that you are (I am) never quite willing to be fully honest on it. Not in the sense that i would lie, never, however I won't be as open as I may be wanting to be.
Which makes it harder I think... to have something like a blog where you can "journal"or "update"... but when you can't exactly tell the whole story becuase of the implications or ramifications that will occurr if you do spill on the Internet. It's like a teaser for opening up haha.Thats all I had to say on that subject... becuase I'm dying to write down everything I'm feeling.... wait
I have a paper Journal
hahah why am i typing this?? I can just write down my musings and records on paper... I havn't kept it since Australia! Ridonkulous. I'm lame.

Well, thats my thought process finding a conclusion.

However, it's always nice to have someone to talk to in person, Especially someone you feel gets you. those can be hard to find.

Peace up
A town out.

Venting?

So today at work I went on a rampage of venting, now as some of you may be aware, this is an event where I can go on a largish monologue about whatever it is that has particularly edged my nerve.

For example, for those of you who read this blog, you saw a light version of my rant about Pirates of the Caribbean 3. Now this movie only irritated me slightly as I thought they could have done a better job... which brings me to rantings about something that does more than irritate me... things that just get right under my nerve.

So at work today, I went into such rant, after being silent in general for almost the entire day (by my own choice... I think I should take a vow of silence... because of Neitche) but then at the end of the day, while doing overtime with some friends a topic comes up and I voice my opinions. Fueled by the by laughter of my two comrades I continued, and in some cases with me, nothing is sacred (see paragraph 5).

Now... what made me realise that I even DO this ranting thing was the fact that on of these said friends after laughing said "Man I love it when Jon vents", and it brought upon revelation about it. For one... it actually showed me that I go into these vents, but I realised that it's usually in these rants when I almost discover more about my actual opinions on things than I do with just simple reflection. (However even reflection for me consists of a small venting of thoughts in my head... so I guess it's how I figure things out) I Don't think i'm a big fan of opening up... unless it's an provoked explosion.

But what caught me was the fact that when I get into these rants, how easily I can find myself tearing apart at people, not for reasons that aren't "supportable", but tearing is still tearing. It caught me, what if deep down I haven't really gotten rid of that malicious jerk that I was very frequently before leaving for Aus. I guess it's something that will still be there when you find it (too) easy to come up with sharp comments off the top of your head... but it's something that you have to be able to catch yourself doing. Even for humours sake? There are limits.

Am I a jerk? A thought.

That was one of today's many revelations. I rant. Who knew.

Why do i keep forgetting to give E-mails and Blog posts titles? You think it would be the primary thing you'd think of... guess not.

Vanessa, I think your the only one who reads my blog anymore, SO!
Check out this artist that Jordan sent me,

Brooke Frasier, I think she's amazing.



On further notes, Chucky will be coming to visit hopefully, and this is the best thing ever. So I am excited for that, and also the new Cry of the Afflicted song is amazing, AMAZING, and i'm really really excited for the new album.
www.myspace.com/cryoftheafflicted
the song is Read Between.

It's awesome, check it, love it, listen over and over. Then tell your friends.